the weekend's finally here and i couldn't be more relieved. im having a lot of trouble settling into the routine of school. first of all, the week started really badly with me leaving my wallet on bus #43 and consequently finding out only because i had to hand over my ezlink card at the guard post because i was late. the next three days saw me running/dashing/brisk walking into school so i wouldnt be late. i wish i could move into the hostel or something.

in addition, my ____'s loneliness is turning her into a psycho monster. first of all, she blamed me for losing my wallet which i cannot totally deny responsibility for but its not as if i did it on purpose or not upset about losing all my stuff. of course she said that i have to pay for and settle the replacement of all my cards and cash on my own and gave me 10$ from my ang pow money (which she keeps locked up in her safe) to last the entire week. mind you, i hardly leave school before dark. then on wednesday, she scolded me for trying to stay up to finish my homework. and yesterday, she tried to force me into playing hard-to-get. every fucking conversation i have with her turns into an interrogation and ultimately an accussation that im going to "turn out just like germaine", hello! just what is so wrong with my sister? having a non-chinese boyfriend and liking alcohol doesnt exactly turn you into the devil. i come home from school and training dead tired to a battle fuelled by tension, the circumstances seriously stinks and i wish ____ would come home once and for all. i know i sound mean, unfilial, ungrateful but i find the countless resolutions made to be nice impossible to keep.

the next entry will be a happy one.
i promise.
term1 week 3 will be a whole lot better.